It's 4am, and I'm awake...

There's always a slightly surreal feeling from seeing the sun begin to rise before you even have had the chance to sleep yet..

I guess that's what you come to expect when you suffer from insomnia in times of stress, and 2 days before my final exam, I'm feeling it. This is along with my already pretty messed up sleeping pattern, with my typical time of sleep being between 3am and 12pm. I hate not being able to sleep this late, I picked up my guitar this evening and played it for the first time for a long time. My fingers are sore from pressing down on the strings so hard, but it made me happy as well as being a major form of procrastination from revision. I'm so unfazed by this exam that it's bordering on ridiculous. Tbh I'm really looking forward to the end of my first year so I can have a break before actually moving on to more focused things in my second year.
I have a lot coming up this summer, the major events being moving house and starting a new job. Both of which are really exciting prospects but also slightly unnerving, because both whilst providing opportunities also provides stress. Maybe then I'll be a bit more equipped for them than I currently feel.

Of course there is also attempting to fit in a long-distance relationship with all of this, Adam means the world to me and if we're going to work it is so important to make time for each other which is increasingly difficult with me working weekends and him having a 9.5hour a day, 5 days a week job. This is going to be so much easier when the car is back on the road, but I'm so worried about that because I feel like I am so out of practice, however I've never been much good at adjusting to someone else's car, so this might be very different when I go back to driving my own, at least I hope so because I'm being thrown right in at the deep end in being driving 160miles at least down the M4 from Swansea to Reading, which could turn into 250 if I need to come straight back to Brighton.

I'm sure everything will work out but it just seems so unsure right now, I'll put my trust in God and see where we end up in 4 months time

But for now, attempted sleep is necessary

XOX