So I went to an event tonight named as above, and actually I surprised myself by getting pretty upset. It went over basically things I've had to learn all by myself over the past 5 years but I wanted to share my comments on the subject.
1. Firstly we don't know why people suffer in most instances, but if we knew, would you feel better about it? Probably not, it'd still be painful, just as before, what you want is a cure
2. God is with us every step of the way, the quote that immediately came to mind was 'when you cry, God cries too.' This reminded me of the peace we felt at that bedside 5 years ago, and although that was the worst moment from my 20 years, we weren't alone in this, and neither was she, her face fell into a natural smile, and I can't describe the feeling, but through the whole thing it was like we were being held
3. One day, death pain and suffering will be a memory, much like the flashbacks and the nightmares...
4. God is constantly training us for things, and he constantly challenges us to build us in relationship with him and to make us more like Jesus, he does this in ways that sometimes, heck often we don't understand right away, or even at all.
Most of all I'm grateful that we had 16 years, not the 3 the doctors anticipated.
So as hard as this is to understand, and even as hard as this is to write, this is why I need to keep hoping.
Even if this goal seems to some illogical and non-existent
I will keep believing
XOX
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